porn

Porn is a body pawnbrokers,
For loners like me to voyeuristically gaze at once in a while,
The boys at school educated me in all I needed to know about the subject,
When I finished my GCSES I also had a PhD in all you need to know about it,
I'd seen thousands of fake tits but never a real one,
I'd seen millions of big disks but never a normal sized one,
A PhD in addiction and how to overcome it and I wasn't even yet an adult,
Hadn't taken drugs,
Hadn't gambled,
Hadn't smoked a cigarette,
It was a way to combat boredom,
Deppression,
Anxiety and stress,
Emotions,
Loneliness,
It was a way to explore,
But it was confusing,
It was convincing of things I wasn't and was,
It was scary,
It was shocking,
It was abuse,
Some used it as a tool for Misogyny, transphobia and as a way to humiliate others,
Some used it to prove how much of a man they were,
They watched girl on girl,
They never watched a porn video with a dick in it,
And because of that they weren't possibly gay or bi,
Or I don't know why we watch it,
Because when we do we our advocating for sex slavery,
For Misogyny,
For STI's,
For the male gaze,
But then why aren't I vegan,
Why aren't I buying only from local buisneses,
Why do I buy unnecessary plastic products,
Why do I invest money in corrupt snd capitalist companies,
Why do I use social media,
Why do I,
Because I'm human,
And I'm an addict to this shit,
Men wank a lot says chatgpt,
But my penis makes me sad when I pull it,
Reminds me of the shock and trauma,
The porn I've seen,
The sexusal acts I've unwillingly mimicked,
The people who've seen them,
The people who've been them,
I'd rather rip it off,
I'd rather it weren't there,
It dangles and dingles and gets in the way,
It's a pawn,
It's nothing,
Powerless,
Out of my control,
It is an addict with a sad face,
It watches porn, 

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