aaaaah

Hurt,
Pain,
Shame,
Am I insane,
Labelled with stigma,
This enigma of social etiquette,
No,
I just want to stay at home with my pets,
in a shed, 
In a forest,
Far away from you all,
Mute,
Loud,
Mute,
Loud,
Anxiety,
My brain like an old computer,
Can't handle the new complex voices,
Overloaded,
Shut down,
Dead,
Can I please just be on my own,
Acclimatising into this firghtning weird ass world takes months and months and then,
Ping,
Pong,
Ding,
Dong,
Its Change,
Too many people in this world,
So different to me,
Am I a misfit,
Weirdo,
Misfit,
Freak,
Reaching the peak of my mental instability,
Kidnapped of my self expression,
Identity,
Fake,
Identity,
Fake,
Mould,
Stains,
Grow on me as people hurt me,
Lost amongst abusers 
Lost amongst crowds,
Lost amongst myself,
Genius,
Idiot,
Genius,
Big ego,
Snob,
Secretly insecure,
Secretly suffocating,
Falling and rising,
Failing and winning,
Spinning,
Spinning,
Spinning,
Unemployed,
Nothing for me,
Nothing for us,
This,
That,
The other,
Psychosis,
Neurosis,
Neurotypical phsychiatrist,



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