FM radio

When I tune into my brain now I feel like I am insane,
I feel insane how I am so angry and deppreseed but I'm not acting on it,
I'm not showing it,

I feel like I'm so angry and want to change so much about our society yet I can do nothing because every sacrifice I make for a better society makes my quality of life worse,

I don't miss hurting myself and writing angry emails every day and being the leader of my own army in a battle I would never win on the Equality of people with mental health issues, but I feel so useless as I'm contributing nothing, no pressure, nothing,

The fact is I don't have a voice so no matter  how much trouble with the law  I will get nothing,

I'm happy now though that I am aware that self strangulation gets you  nowhere in the desperate journey to get mental health support within free health care. 

But I feel so insane that I want change but am not fighting for it, I'm not throwing orange powder on football pitches, blocking roads, killing those who have hurt me and others, 

I am though doing a little thing,
I'm writing angry emails,
But I've told myself one angry email a day and no more than that,
They have to read every email,
It won't impact anything,
It doesn't give me a voice,
But at least it makes me feel happy,

Like my anger is dispersed in some way so I don't feel top guilty,
For doing fuck all. 

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