the dream

One day I'll move out and,
One day you won't have any bullying to do,
And on that day you'll torment nobody,
And when that day comes you'll understand,
You'll understand what it's like to feel like nobody is there with you,
Like nobody understands what's going on between you and her,
Cuz One day I'll move out and you won't be able to zap your alien zappy zap abuse at me,
Cuz One day you won't control everyone around you to make me feel alone,
Cuz One day you won't be there for them,
And one day you won't be there for anyone,
And on that day there will be no manipulation,
And when that day comes I won't think my food is poisoned,
And when that day comes you won't be eating all the cake I've brought to share to feel like a part of the family,
And when that day comes I'll have a bigger family around me,
And we'll share the cake equally,
And equally we'll work,
And equally we'll love,
And I will be happier,
And I will be nicer to my sisters,
And I will be nicer to you,
Because as soon as you upset me,
I'll walk away,
I'll leave,
And on that day I'll go to my bigger family,
And when that day comes you'll feel alone,
Because you'll be blamed,
And people will be angry with you 

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