people don't talk to me

People don't talk to me because,
I become all involved,
Because my anxieties and worries about losing their friendship makes me latch on to them like a fly in there Web,
Because I'm overwhelmed with neurodivergent love and friendship,
Because people our special to me,
Because I'm this walking self harm trigger warning,
A walking psych ward,
Because I draw faces in tangerines and talk to them,
Because I draw,
Because I'm an attention seeker,
A burden,
An emotional burden,
Cuz I'm a criminal,
Cuz I'm dangerous,
Cuz I'm pathetic and sacrilegious,
Cuz I'm different,
Cuz I'm weird,
Cuz I'm boring,
Talentless,



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