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amazon

My life ruined by the polystyrene balls that cradle me in my amazon box,  Taped up as to stop me seeing the real world, Tape is easy peelings for when they want to abuse me, Industrial staples shotgunned into my box, Pain I feel, Pain and noise, Packaging peanut allergy tightens my throat up, Cannot speak, Grey is the colour, Beige is the colour I see, Wrapped in plastic, Suffocating, Vacuum packed, Sucking it all out of me, All of it, My life, All these rules, All these labels, This way up,  Fragile, Flammable, Bubble wrap of more interest than me, A product of your spending spree, Only picked cuz, Next day delivery, Sat next to bottles of piss, Thrown around, Up and down, Hot, Sweaty, Im the sex toy you don't ask consent too and fuck, fuck, fuck,  Or The one time down there pube hair shaver, Or the rope you use to kill yourself cuz hell I make you so deppressed, Maybe I'm the book about maths or Philosophy, the Royal family, some boring shit like that, Whatever it is I...
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burial

Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me I'm diying I'm diying  I'm diying  I'm rotting away  I'm a corpse Being dragged into a coffin  I'm a skeletal creature  I'm a hater of humanity  A hater of humanity  I'm the devil's preacher  I'm a nihilistic teacher  I'm a screacher  A rape alarm gone off, A survival whistle blown, A dog groan A ghostly figure moan, Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me  Can anyone hear me I'm diying I'm diying  I'm diying  I'm ashes  A blown out fire  Dire emergency patient  Wired to delusional beliefs  They lay weaths out for me like im already dead, Like im so messed up in the head they can't save me,
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washing machine

If I could hit my head, Over, And over, And over, And over again, Like in a washing machine, It goes bumpity, Bumpity, Bump, Washing away the pain that's in my mind with less powerful pain in my bleeding head, A blood filled tide pod fills my head with the fresh scent of blood,  Blood that oozes out Blood that seeps in to my surrounding skin, As satisfying to watch as the bubbles bouncing round and round, Dreams of having a hammer right here with me, Thump, Thump, It will go on my skin, Knocking through the walls of my skull, To the gothic interior within, Knocking the glass of the light bulb, So I can sleep tonight, If I could hit my head, Over, And over, And over, And over, And over, And over again, Knocking the dark thoughts out of my mind, Bleaching my brain from dark to light, Like a washing machine, Like a hammer, Hitting my mind simply allows it to shatter
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body

My tender skin tears itself, My tender skin rips open, My tender heart collapses, My tender heart sinks down, My tender brain disintegrates, My tender brain disintegrates, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost myself, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost my worth, I'm a goner that's what I am, I'm a goner that's what I'll forever be My tender lungs shrink away, My tender lungs implode My tender bones go to jelly, My tender bones crack apart, My tender eyes they retract from their sockets and my lips they glue together, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost myself, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost my worth I'm a tender man, I cant man up, oh I'm a tender woman, I'm all skin and bo-o-o-ones We our tender people, With angry dad's, With fake role models, Influencers, And friends, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost myself, Ive lost my head now, Ive lost my worth, Ive lost my head now
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medicine

My skin bound to my insecurities, Moulding itself into ugliness, Foreshadowing the anxieties I'll face when I walk out the door today, A gentle reminder that I'm never safe from my own mind, How I want to ply my skin open and pull out the strand that strangles my positivity, My eyes dry from crying, My eyes red from stress, My eyes just want to close, But closing down drowns what's left of me that sees some hope in this dust bin of a world So I take my tablets, I take my tablets and I carry on.
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damage me

Damage me, Haunt me, Kill me, Taunt me, Inject me with cyonide, Ply me open, Cut me up into little chunks, Poke a spear right through me, Tie a knot around my neck, Drown me, Oh drown me, Rip me to shreds, Rip me to fucking shreds, Set me alight, Blow me up with dynamite, I'm a ragdoll in your fight, I'm a ragdoll, Suffocate me, Wrap plastic round my head, Round my head, Round and round and round, Throw me down, Off a cliff, Off a bridge, Coffin, Put me in a coffin, Bury me alive, Bury me in suicide, Tazer, Lazer, Grazer, Graze on me, Mow me down, The blade turning round and round, Against my skull, Shut the blinds on my mind, On my eyes, Bullet through my brain, Dagger through my heart,
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can't be arsed

Cannot be arsed with life  Cannot be arsed with happiness  Cannot be arsed wirh anger  Cannot be arsed with sadness  Fuck stress  Fuck this mess Fuck it all  Fuck everything  Fuck the fucking face of your head  Fuck you  Fucking dead  Fuck off Fuck off I said  Filling me with dread  Agitation  Aggression  Address me by my fucking name  Putting shame on the world  You shameful spiteful human being
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