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there for you

Eat salad it's good for you, Go on a walk twice a day, Listen to nonsense on TV, Ring samaritans, They there for you, Drink water it's good for you, See the sky twice a day, Listen to nonsense on a call too samaritans, Ring 111, 111 is there for you, Eat an apple it's good for you, Breathe the fresh air twice a day, Listen to nonsense on a call too 111, Go to your GP  your GP is there for you, Drink a smoothie it's good for you, Feel the trews twice a day, Listen to the nonsense of the GP, Go to A&E, A&E is there for you, Eat a pea it's good for you, Sit in the grass twice a day, Listen to the nonsense of the under trained mental health nurse,  Go to nobody, Nobody is there for you, Nobody can be, Nobody has the time nor money. 

FM radio

When I tune into my brain now I feel like I am insane, I feel insane how I am so angry and deppreseed but I'm not acting on it, I'm not showing it, I feel like I'm so angry and want to change so much about our society yet I can do nothing because every sacrifice I make for a better society makes my quality of life worse, I don't miss hurting myself and writing angry emails every day and being the leader of my own army in a battle I would never win on the Equality of people with mental health issues, but I feel so useless as I'm contributing nothing, no pressure, nothing, The fact is I don't have a voice so no matter  how much trouble with the law  I will get nothing, I'm happy now though that I am aware that self strangulation gets you  nowhere in the desperate journey to get mental health support within free health care.  But I feel so insane that I want change but am not fighting for it, I'm not throwing orange powder on football pitches, blocking road...

dear secondary school

Dear secondary school, Why our you so blind and deaf, Why do you let them create a bloody hole in my chest, A hole that goes deeper and deeper, As more and more trauma builds and builds, All that comes out there mouths is manipulation, They touch me, Caress me, Confuse me, They punch me, They bruise me, They bully me, But you don't fucking see, They think I'm a sex toy, They think I'm a weird boy, They think I'm a ragdoll, They think I'm a bad boy, They think I'm a, But you don't think  They don't know I'm a sad boy, They don't see the self harming, The jumping in front of cars, The strangulation, They don't hear the screams and you don't either, Well if I had to go to school I'd bring some scissors so I can cut all the dicks, Both the metaphorical and real dicks, Cut them like they cut all the red lines down my leg, And maybe then you'd see, Maybe then you'd hear, Maybe then you'd think,